Hi again! It’s so nice to be back, but I also really enjoyed my break from the blogging world. To first time visitors, I had taken a break for 3 weeks from blogging. I needed some time to catch my bearings and be reintegrated with my husband who had recently returned from a 2 month deployment. Even though it was “only” 2 months (as oppose to 6 or 8 months) it felt like a long time, and I needed some time to reorganize, and figure out life with my husband again. Let’s just say I felt a little disorganized, and needed some time to pull away and focus on my family.
My Fun 5 k race
I thought the perfect day to return to blogging was on the day of my race. You may or may not remember my post on setting the date for the 5 k race, and then my subsequent onecon training for one (aka my training plan). Ahahaha, well let’s just say I did not quite follow the training plan to the tee, but ended up “free-styling” it, where I did my own version of “work out runs,” and cut the mileage WAY down.
Any who besides cutting corners on that, my husband made me feel less badly about that after he so fondly stated: “It’s just like training for the PFT (military fitness test), everyone says they’ll train for it, but in the end you just have to gut it out.” My favourite, “gut it out” kind of made me laugh, because it’s mostly true, and fitted my commitment to this race. I was not coming from a competitive spirit, but from wanting to have some fun and doing it because I can.
And the race was a good fit for me; It was lighthearted, for a good cause (went towards a scholarship fund), and fun. I swallowed my competitive nature, and even started the race near the back. I slowly worked my way up, and felt great the first two miles. And then the last mile hit me, and I felt the lack of running I missed in my “training.”
As it turns out I ended up getting third place overall for women, and finished with a time of 22:52. That time would have been super embarrassing to me a couple of years ago (it’s almost 4 minutes slower than my personal best time)… and a part of me felt kind of embarrassed still, but considering I havent raced for over 2 years, and just had a baby, I’m happy.
I feel kind of bad (maybe arrogant?) for admitting that because their were people crying for joy over breaking 30 minutes (which I thought was really sweet by the way!). What’s one persons best, is another’s worst, and another’s worst is someone else’s best. Truthfully, I admire those people who knew with all certainty they did their best, wether or not they finished in 30 minutes.
Sigh, I think this race may have sparked some fire in me again to try break my personal best time of 19:19 minutes. But for this race, I really needed to do it just for fun, and drop the competitiveness… don’t get me wrong, I still “gutted” it out, and raced my hardest, but I didn’t prepare for it with my best effort. But I needed to do that for me so I could find the joy in it, find the fun in it, and praise Jesus doing it.
What about you? Do you think it’s okay to just do something just because you can? You know, forget about the perfect training, the perfect circumstances, and do it for fun irregardless of if it’s your best? I feel like this is so countercultural! (At least it goes against my athletic and competitive personality.)